Current mood:	curious
Current music:	Venus the bringer of Peace - Holst

my goal is to fill out an application a day. i've done so online and in person for the past three. today i felt like a fool because on the 7 11 application there is a basic math skills part, and i know i answered one wrong. i was stumped for about 5 minutes on 14 times 6 so i just wrote down a number because i couldn't remember my times tables.. i can't stand how idiotic math has always made me feel and look. i found out there is a math disability like dyslexia called dyscalculia. how helpful it could have been if that term existed when i was a child and i'd been tested for it. i know i would have tested positive.
Josh has been getting cut very early and has also been getting cut shifts too. he's freaking out about money right now with two weeks of three five hour workdays. he's starting to freak me out since my period is coming and i'm getting emotional anyway. i know that he'll get out there and apply for work and be employed before i even get a call back because that's the way it is. my work history is as impressive at this point as a sixteen year old's. hopefully nothing serious will happen and we'll be able to get through this like we always do.
i had a crazy strange little thought just now listening to Neptune from Holst- i still do know how to read tarot cards. i could put up an ad on craigslist since craigslist gets so much response. who knows what sort of response i'd get or if it would be worthwhile. do i really want to get involved with all those new agers? i need to ponder this before i even bring it up to Josh. right ow though, it seems like it's the only thing i am able to do that could possibly generate any money. i know i've had this thought before and never acted on it. partially because i don't want to be mistaken for a fraud, partially because i don't want to be bothered with it. i dunno. i suppose it's worth a shot if we agree it's a viable option.