Current mood:	bored
Current music:	I Don't Want to Set The World on Fire - The Ink Spots

i was really happy last night to discover that i'm at 135 finally. then today was spent either being down about shit or being bored. ain't life grand? i didn't get to go out and fill out any new applications so tomorrow i am planning on stopping at payless and sallys beauty. maybe getting the powder for the developer and some foils to bleach out my hair a bit. i think i have decided to do it white - though that will take a while and probably a few bleach outs. i also need this week to stop at smiths and that subway right by the apartment.
i entered to win the free rent for a year contest in the apartment though i doubt my name would be drawn.
Joshua and i were talking about what to do about Ari's terrible performance at school the past few days. she's not been doing any work and what she does here at home she doesn't turn in. if this keeps up she'll have to go to summer school. he said that she should be miserable - duh she already is miserable that's why she's on anti depressants since traditional therapy was ineffective. he doesn't even ask what i think should happen until he's already decided what's going to happen. i was going to say her consequence for not passing would have been summer school coupled with no vacation back to illinois.
it wouldn't be such a bad thing to keep her away from my family as they were not exactly a positive influence this last visit. she fell right back into old behaviors and wasn't any better or happier for it. she sees her aunt at 25 still living at home. granted i was as well though i worked a full time job and raised a child single handed. her aunt can't even pay her own cell phone bill. she was doing so much better before spring break. her grades were way up, and teachers were writing positive notes in her agenda. now she's gone all the way back to fuck it and everyone is on my ass as though i can do something about it. i can't force another person to care.

completely off topic i really want to download the new content for fallout 3, though we don't even have that game. then i'd have something to do when Joshua watches his shows on hulu. i should just start over when i get the game and create a new character though i saw in one of the packages to download you can go up five more levels - i'm a nerd i know. it's fun to be nerdy.